if i could be

if i could replay this song, over and over again.
could've, should've, would've. the three phrases of regret. i have no train of thought today. just random bits and pieces of what i could be thinking, should be thinking, would be thinking. it is too easy to blame someone else for the things we do, but how can we help it. it's a funny thing how the flowers bloom in spring and trees lose their leaves in the fall. numerous 'dear god's throughout my day. all the support i have, all the love i'm surrounded by; what do they matter if i can't learn to appreciate them. realizing something is gone..finding it again. figuring out something entirely new. i ask You to forgive me. my memories, so much more solid than an album full of photgraphs. the clock on the wall tells me nothing. it rushes and holds back time. i never know anymore.

so if i forget, what'll help me remember?